Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Infini-tea-ly Affectionate

This is one of my favourite pictures in a long time.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

On The Rim

I didn't realize how apt the name of my blog was till this morning. Was lazing around at home, as is usual during vacations..and it suddenly occured to me that there are hundreds of things I need to think out. Like plan my internships, think over my exam which I have to write on the 24th, start doing basic research for the moot, plan out my diet, discuss some things about college and work and future with my parents, find out some things..and I realized how much I procrastinate with respect to these issues.
Even since college has begun, I never really allow myself to settle down in either place, be it home or college. When I'm in college I'm always looking forward to getting home and chilling, and when I'm home, I keep putting off things I really need to work out in my head till I get to college. I don't know when I became so much of an escapist. Somewhere along the line, I've become so underconfident about being up to facing a problem and coming out on the winning side that I've started ignoring problems altogether. It's not like they don't catch up with me, but whenever they do, I just take an ad hoc decision and forget about the whole thing. It's really weird- this isn't what I used to be like. And I've really missed out on a lot in the last two and a half years because of this. I need to settle down. Breathe. And think, and take decisions. Focus. And live the life that's currently on play. Stop running from one place to another in my head. Maybe I should try meditating. And I really should lose weight.
I'm gonna do both from today. Just after this last little nap. I've gotta get down, plunge deeper, stop being the rim-person that I've become. I suppose this entry would've been more apt for a very personal journal. But I don't keep one. And I don't really care if people see this. So there. I will stop floating today. Just after this little nap.